It's hard too believe our love and friendship the caring the long unmentionable hours of passion and manic sex--in which I will neverever forget is no longer---9-maybe 10 months together was fantastic---you had your moments--- okay we had our moments------god I miss you--- you truly were the best manfriend certainly not a boy ---friend I have had the pleasure of enjoying--- in everyway ---you spoiled me with only the best --that life has to offer --- we spoke of a life together--but you knew I couldn't handle the many -many trips too the bathroom --seeing you out in the open was way-- too much for me-- but I was able too get you- to not do your thing in my face--- call it respect --call it embarrassment for you ---because of course you had too reach your high and not once but 4-6 times even more --who have I met... a major component in major companies ...and how is this possible --this guy gets so fucking high --but always creative and super charming too every one-- but you have to want too change for yourself---- and for you and your son who doesnt know his dad is an addict---I will always love you.... you are truly a fantastic man-- you know--I've done all I could as a friend-- its up too u....... I will always love you...