It's hard too believe our love and friendship the caring the long unmentionable hours of passion and manic sex--in which I will neverever forget is no longer---9-maybe 10 months together was fantastic---you had your moments--- okay we had our moments------god I miss you--- you truly were the best manfriend certainly not a boy ---friend I have had the pleasure of enjoying--- in everyway ---you spoiled me with only the best --that life has to offer --- we spoke of a life together--but you knew I couldn't handle the many -many trips too the bathroom --seeing you out in the open was way-- too much for me-- but I was able too get you- to not do your thing in my face--- call it respect --call it embarrassment for you ---because of course you had too reach your high and not once but 4-6 times even more --who have I met... a major component in major companies ...and how is this possible --this guy gets so fucking high --but always creative and super charming too every one-- but you have to want too change for yourself---- and for you and your son who doesnt know his dad is an addict---I will always love you.... you are truly a fantastic man-- you know--I've done all I could as a friend-- its up too u....... I will always love you...
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Angel------ thats my name...... my grandmother gave me that name--may she rest in peace...
there is a song on the radio playing called Angel--- wax poetic by nora jones-- sounds retro has a 50's ha cha cha vibe---- that has made me teary eyed ---I'm sure it has nothing to do with the cognac sm. shot glass and small glass of chardonnay-- mix going on ---- I was 5yrs old when my older sister Cynthia took me too an older couple that lived on the south side of chicago --which is where I was born--- just to mention--I remember walking up the brownstone stairs and going inside with my sister-- she had me greet them--- then I saw my sister leave--she left me with complete strangers ----I remember crying , crying,crying ---how do you adjust--- too complete strangers--- when you have no choice--because--- my mother wasn't able too take care of the eight children ----I was put in a foster home --they were extremely nice too me----I have come to know my history from a woman named marylou todd----she convinced my foster parents too take me ---she met my sister in church---who explained to her that my mom couldnt take care of eight kids--and if they had it in their hearts too keep me..... and for 16 years they did and my 3 younger brothers---but my older siblings were already teenagers and lived their own lives ---we all grew apart --but my mom has never seen all eight of her children... I hope too change that--- -
why-----why----whyyyyyyy---- online dating whyyyyyy----
we live our lives--- we want something new ---unseen by our friends ---all our own---for me this moment is new-- and not sure if I like it-- I "ve just arrived home from I don't know what too call it ---mind you --I have been chatting overseas--- they look better---but something from around the corner can u imagine--- caught my eye --not great but interesting--what the hell--life is too short-- ---but just my luck he had too be the creep of all creeps too enjoy this day with---it started out ok ----ended with him sneaking out because I assume he didn't have enough money--but said -- I'll take care of the ck. as he got up---too go to the bathroom--- I watched him leave--- what the fuck just happened --- he agreed too the location enjoyed my salad and his meal----and my wine---Whatever--- I know---he just couldnt handle my beauty-- I had a major grand stand ---lol .........what could be better then this--- well ..the nite before--- with my frenchman!!! what next........ -
yes-- once again --sleepless nites--- tossing and turning-- I cant get too sleep--because my fucking bosses have been together for 7 yrs. not married mind you---he left his wife for her --she was in abusive relationships told too me by 60+ who is from holland and she claims 38--- I'm sure 40+ from belgium---anyway---she met someone in the store 6mo. ago-- but 60+ thinks these trysts have gone on for months-- with several men--- 60+ is just paying attention---
anyway--long story short-- she went too india for 2 wks. with this younger guy -----60+ is pissed--she gets ultimatum --" its him or me " she thinks she's in love- maybe she is---moves in with the young rat-- I mean cat- 1/2 mile down the road in belgium and now I'm in the middle of this shit -- so I keep my thoughts to myself ---for once I really love work----and I know they will get back together--- easy equation her brain + his money
match made in hell I mean heaven......